So, As much as I generally like the fact that I don't feel extreme emotions often.. mainly stress.. Sometimes it can bite me in the butt. Example: I SUDDENLY realized that I am stressed. Its not a gradual "oh... i have alot to do... i need to get this and this ready.... im getting stressed.... etc" its a HUGE slap of stressedness (yes... it IS a word.. at least for tonight). Then anyone who is unlucky enough to be around me at the moment has to experience my crankiness. Even though some people find it funny... I HATE being cranky.. especially since I am fully aware of the ridiculousness of blowing the situation out of proportion. Then I get even more upset at myself for getting upset at such a comparatively small issue.
I also have realized that one reason I don't get stressed easily is because I do NOT procrastinate. I do things far enough ahead of time always that they it never causes me stress. However... when I realized that I leave on friday for St. Louis and have not planned out a single thing to pack.... SLAP... I got stressed. Then things started to get in the way of packing and preparing to leave and I get even more upset.... but STILL know I'm being ridiculous. It'll get done... I'll get packed... odds are I won't forget anything.... and I'll have a wonderful summer... but that makes me even more mad at myself for NOT being calm now. GRRRRR....
Ok.. I'm done ranting... I also need sleep. My decrease in sleep lately, while completely worth it for the quality of the company I've been enjoying, has also made me more on edge. Thus creating... surprise, surprise... more stress.
I'm sorry for anyone who had to experience cranky-pants Laura today. These spells are frustrating, but are reasonably short.
Good night.
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