I took the official Enneagram Personality Test thing.. and realized that I'm horrible at self-diagnosis.... go figure. I was guessing that I was a 5 (The investigator) considering my avid desire to understand and analyze people.. .however... I quickly realized as I took the test that this type of analysis means I'm a 2... not a 5. Well.. my top three were 2 (the Helper) with 25 pts.... 1 (The Reformer) with 22 pts... and 9 (The Peacemaker) with 20 pts...
So... I think this is fairly accurate... I really think I've reasonably evenly spread out.. because 3, 7, and 8 all had 15 pts.. fairly close. I don't think I fully fit into just one category.
So lets analyze this:
2. The Helper:
Overview: Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.
1. The Reformer:
Overview: Ones are conscientious and ethical, with a strong sense of right and wrong. They are teachers, crusaders, and advocates for change: always striving to improve things, but afraid of making a mistake. Well-organized, orderly, and fastidious, they try to maintain high standards, but can slip into being critical and perfectionistic. They typically have problems with resentment and impatience. At their Best: wise, discerning, realistic, and noble. Can be morally heroic.
9. The Peacemaker:
Overview: Nines are accepting, trusting, and stable. They are usually creative, optimistic, and supportive, but can also be too willing to go along with others to keep the peace. They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting. They typically have problems with inertia and stubbornness. At their Best: indomitable and all-embracing, they are able to bring people together and heal conflicts.
As I read these all together.. I think they sum me up rather well. Except... well.. the Reformer's tendency to be orderly and well organized... haha. With somethings I am (like my schedule.. I never miss deadlines and am NOT a procrastinator.. and when it comes to singing.. I'm a perfectionist... but when it comes to my surroundings... neat and orderly hardly describes it).
Also.. with the Peacemaker... As much as I have a desire to solve conflicts... I have no problem with engaging in conflicts and I rarely.. if ever... dance around issues. I'm very direct and blunt... to a fault at times. I rarely ever "go along" with things simply to avoid conflict.
I'm wondering where my lack of strong emotions fit in. I have REALLY mad once in my life... and reasonably mad twice.... Both of which had to do with someone hurting someone else (number 2... yep). I can't tell if I'm emotionally stressed... and don't tend to feel nervous (now that I don't play trumpet solos anymore.. .haha). Apparently 2's are driven by their emotions.. I am not in any way. I am practical to a fault.. at times. Really.. I think I must feel emotions.. but I simply don't let them effect my outlook/relationships. I must (very quickly and automatically) realize how temporal emotions are and simply bypass them and make the rational decision. I don't know if this is good or bad. Mainly.. I think I figure God has a plan or is teaching me something with a situation... so I have no problem giving it up to him (most of the time).
However.. the 2 in me seems to be more in tune with other's emotions than my own. I feel terribly for others but don't really notice my problems. I don't think I suppress them... they just don't occupy my mind.
I AM a fixer... and get really frustrated when I am helpless. Which is a bit odd.. because overall... I am very "go with the flow". I am not worried about my future and have no problem letting the chips fall where they may... but when I see something/someone that needs help or I know a way to fix a problem.. but am either not allowed to or just can't... it DRIVES ME NUTS! but again.. prolly the "Helper" in me.
Ironically.. the Peacemaker and Reformer have 2 very opposing characteristics.. I'm more of a reformer in this situation. I do not like being complacent (as the Peacemakers can often become)... I have the "just get it done" mentality. I figure, if you don't address issues.. nothing can improve/change. Conflict is important in improving broken/struggling relationships... so just deal with it! I have little patience for ridiculousness, laziness, and those who complain about situations without being willing to do something ab0ut it.
Another VERY strong reformer trait I have is the crusader. I tend to (as my blog can attest for) go on rants. I get on a subject.. and feel the need to tell EVERYONE... as well as the random desire to write a book to tell the world what I think.. or how I've analyzed a situation/certain group of people. However.. I rarely follow through with these ambitions (ie. I have NOT in fact written any books yet.) I also think this description is generally correct: "Want to be right, to strive higher and improve everything, to be consistent with their ideals, to justify themselves, to be beyond criticism so as not to be condemned by anyone." However.. my desire to be right is rarely in relation to other people... I don't need to be right OVER someone else... just just the truth in general and follow through.. regardless of what people think of my decision.
In understanding this... These are the healthy goals of my 3 types:
Helper: Become deeply unselfish, humble, and altruistic: giving unconditional love to self and others. Feel it is a privilege to be in the lives of others.
Reformer: Become extraordinarily wise and discerning. By accepting what is, they become transcendentally realistic, knowing the best action to take in each moment. Humane, inspiring, and hopeful: the truth will be heard.
Peacemaker: Become self-possessed, feeling autonomous and fulfilled: have great equanimity and contentment because they are present to themselves. Paradoxically, at one with self, and thus able to form more profound relationships. Intensely alive, fully connected to self and others.
Hopefully I can find the good qualities in all the types I identified with and develop those.
Do you think these are accurate... From what you know of me?
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