My Inner Introvert

I had a hot date tonight... with a book, starbucks, and myself. It.... was.... amazing. Lately, It seems that I can't get enough alone time. No matter how much I've had, I always crave more. Being around large amounts of people is so exhausting.... even if I'm not interacting with them. What is that?!

I know on the myers briggs test it can never decide whether I'm an introvert or an extrovert. Each time I take it, the answer switches. I'm assuming that I am on the line between the two. I think I'm edging more towards introvert in my old age.

I'm also discovering that my ideal living situation would be living alone (pre-marriage... of course). My roommate is great, low key, and we get along really well... but the times over breaks when I get the place to myself are wonderful. I am more productive, relaxed, and just love it. I always figured I'd need to have people around... but I'm beginning to change my thinking. Maybe its my new experience having to deal with real loneliness or maybe I'm just getting use to a more solitary life.

Really.. its not THAT solitary. I still have great friends here and wonderful friends I talk to on a regular basis... but I just NEED more alone time than I use to need. Although, it was pretty hard to find true alone time at Olaf, even when you wanted it.... the blessing and curse of a small school.

Another factor may be my general tiredness. It is 10:15 on a Friday Night and I can barely keep my eyes open, regardless of the fact that I got at least 8 hours of sleep last night and for the past few weeks, with only a few exceptions. I have been constantly tired... even during the day. This state also makes me less prone to seek out people. Crabby-Laura doesn't show up very often... but when she does, I don't like to share her with the world (even though I'm apparently funny when I'm crabby). Being tired has made Ugly, crabby Laura rear her head more often than I would like. Crap.

As much as I love this alone-time thing.... I really hope I can stop being so tired. One thing that might help is the early morning run I have been planning... but unsuccessfully doing. If I just woke up the same time I did last semester (7am)... I could run for an hour and still make my 9:00 class... but lately, I can't get my lazy butt up before 8. Its rather frustrating. As much as it would cut back my actual sleeping time, getting my endorfins going can only help my body and mind wake up. Maybe that'll get easier when the weather gets a bit warmer.

Who knows why this change has occurred.. but I'm going to embrace my introvert and finally get alot of reading done.

ok... i'm going to bed. (yep... at 10:30 on Friday night)